this feeling in my heart,this aching in my soul,i do not know this pain,its none i ve known before. i do not know why it hurts so bad yet i feel as though i am alone in my pain. this feeling courses through me like the very blood i need,but why?why....why does it hurt me so?....i do not know where this pain is coming from its like a knife from my past stabbing me forever on. i feel the only escape is to remove this knife from my soul and bleed this pain out.....but what will become of me?,if all i have known is this aching,this pain in my heart of hearts?...what am i without it?will i just fade into the background?will i cease to be me?.....this ache i fear...is all i shall ever be.